Canon's Diary

Action without thought is empty; thought without action is blind – Goethe

While living with schizophrenia, I move between Tokyo and Osaka. Through this journal, I hope to quietly share moments from my daily life—and memories from the journey I’ve taken with my illness.

Category: family

  • Tuesday, July 1.Last night I got home late, so I didn’t soak in the tub—just took a quick shower. Even this morning, waking up, I felt a sluggish heaviness lingering in the thick, humid air. It’s sunny outside, but my apartment building is under exterior renovation, scaffolding all around. Even the windows on my top-floor…

  • Monday, June 30.It was my first time going back to our Osaka head office in a while.My fridge was empty, but luckily, I found some fried rice waiting for me in the freezer — that saved the day. Having worked through Saturday and Sunday in Tokyo, plus taking the bullet train all the way to…

  • Saturday, June 28.In the afternoon, I came home from my psychiatric appointment and had soba noodles for lunch. Since I didn’t have any kakiage tempura, I tossed in some cabbage, pork, and carrots to make sure I was getting enough veggies. I was a bit worried about work, so I turned on my work laptop…

  • June 28th, Saturday. A perfectly clear day. When I woke up, it was already past 9:00. A week’s worth of fatigue had hit me all at once, and I had overslept. I had an appointment at the psychiatric clinic at 9:30, so I jumped out of bed and hurried to get ready. In the kitchen,…

  • Friday, June 27.Once again, the weather was strange today—sunny, then cloudy, then sudden bursts of rain. After getting up and taking a bath, I had a lettuce sandwich for breakfast. Today, I planned to take my mother to the Pension Center near Machida Station to apply for the conversion of my late father’s pension into…

  • Thursday, June 26th. It managed to stay dry during the day, but by nightfall, the rain had started up again. From morning on, it was just one thing after another. First, I headed to a nearby municipal office branch to get all the necessary documents—family registry, official seal certificate, and so on. I had already…

  • Wednesday, June 25th.While working from home, I glanced out the window at the sky. The weather was strange—sunny one moment, then cloudy, then pouring rain. Just a while ago it was a heavy downpour, but now the sun peeked through gaps in the clouds.Today, my work went smoothly from the morning. I summarized the minutes…

  • Wednesday, June 24th.The sky is overcast, with occasional light rain. I stayed in bed until 7:30 to get a bit more sleep. I’m working from home today. I’ve grown tired of toast, so I picked up a rice ball and a chicken salad from the convenience store for breakfast. A message came in from the…

  • Monday, June 23. It was a sunny day, but once again, the wind was strong.Since I work from home, I slept in until 7:30, even though my official workday starts at 8.The weekend tennis had worn me out, so I decided to have two slices of toast to replenish some energy.My wife headed off to…

  • Sunday, June 22. It’s supposed to be the rainy season, but not a single cloud is in the sky—just clear, bright sunshine. Perhaps this too is a result of global warming. When I woke up, a ray of light peeked through the gap in the curtains. Since my room faces west, the sun doesn’t shine…