Canon's Diary

Action without thought is empty; thought without action is blind – Goethe

While living with schizophrenia, I move between Tokyo and Osaka. Through this journal, I hope to quietly share moments from my daily life—and memories from the journey I’ve taken with my illness.

Thursday, July 3rd.
It’s cloudy, but the humidity and temperature are high.
When I finally arrived at the office, the air conditioning was blasting.

I hadn’t felt well since the morning. Lightheaded, nauseous, chills that made me put on extra layers. I couldn’t focus on work. Something was clearly wrong. I checked my pill case — I had taken last night’s medication properly.

I had some soba noodles for lunch and felt a bit better, but I still couldn’t concentrate on work afterward. My hands and feet were tingling. It seemed I might have come down with a mild case of heat exhaustion.

I let my boss know and headed home.

To be honest, I’m exhausted.
In February, I was told I’d be transferred alone. In March, I prepared for the move. And in April, I started a new life in Osaka. The move, the unfamiliar environment. Amid all that, my father passed away. I arranged the funeral, handled the inheritance paperwork for my mother. New job responsibilities. Frequent trips back and forth between Tokyo and Osaka.

Even so, I tried to live carefully, mindfully. I started cooking for myself. I kept playing tennis. My autonomic nervous system must have been thrown off balance too.

I need to rest a little.

Right now, I’m at home, quietly listening to jazz.
Today, I think I’ll just take it slow.

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2 responses to “A New City, a New Life, and a Little Rest”

  1. Secret Diary of a Church of England Vicar's Wife Avatar

    Hope you have a good rest and feel better soon! Enjoy the jazz!

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    1. 風音 真人 (Masato Kazane) Avatar

      Thanks for your kind word.
      I am getting better now.

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